A list! Of somesort!
posted by Seth in career, college, future, life, music, wordsI can’t think of anything really to write about, but I feel compelled to by….stuff.
1. I always feel like giving people a video to watch, and since I like music…music videos! I don’t usually dig live music all that much (such a weird music fan), and I’m not that big of a Mountain Goats fan either…singer/songwriters don’t usually do much for me, honestly. However! No Children is a simply glorious song, and I think that this is the best way to hear it first.
2. Leila mentioned Calvin Harris in this post. I like him too, as it happens, particularly The Girls. My roommate has latched onto it as well, and I think that mean that even the average non-weird fellow can enjoy it too. I don’t condone the rather-full-of-itself chorus, but I do take a little joy in singing it.
3. Something which I intended to perhaps write a real post about, but has the brash slang term “vcard” infiltrated your circles? I suppose it’s not very prevalent amongst the females, but…referring to taking a girl’s virginity as a “vcard” bugs the hell out of me. Or anyone else’s, actually. This little addition to the lexicon singlehandedly convinced me that joining the rest of the guyish guys on my floor at a table in the dining hall was, plainly, a bad idea. An anecdote about dating a girl who “really liked you,” attempting to get her to leave you by mistreating her because you were just too cowardly to break it off, and then finishing the story by bragging that you took her “vcard” (not even the maturity to say virginity, plainly)…that should not evoke laughter, and I feel sorry for a generation of young guys who would laugh at something like that. Maybe it’s just because I’m a lonely internet weirdo crazy nerd-geek virgin, but that is not how a fellow should treat a dame. Or a dame should treat a fellow, if there are dames who are into treating fellows like that. I am oddly old-fashioned.
4. I would really love to be reading something right now. Finals week is coming up, and I feel that the Calculus final is going to swallow me whole. Why did I even take that class? I am fooling myself into believing that I would like Computer Science or would be good at it, and I need math for that. But…I’m really just not cut out for math. I am a highly disorganized, forgetful, sloppy embarrassment of a human being. I am not so much a person as a human condition. AND it depresses the hell out of me. I want to be good at math, but I am unwilling to put the effort into it because I am too smugly assured of my intelligence to put forth the extra effort required. I just…I can’t wring joy out of calculus, and I can’t succeed effortlessly. Is the hollow joy of doing something well that you are already good at somehow more satisfying to me? I always feel so confused about what I want to be…
5. Why not talk about that, then? Okay. I am, at the moment, an English major. A de facto English major, but one none the less. I don’t know what I would ever do with an English major. I would love to be a writer…but I am sadly not a very motivated individual. Also, I can’t plot my way out of a paper bag, and I have the attention span, at least when it comes to writing, of a pot-addled degenerate. Hurroo. So maybe that isn’t for me. Or maybe it is, and I’m just too lazy and too scared that I won’t make it to try. There’s that. Also…I’m good at analyzing literature. I got perfect scores on the Critical Reading of both fancy shmancy Mister College Application Acronym Tests, and although I tend to view as a reflection of the worthless concentration of my talents…well, maybe I’m good at this pedantic sort of thing. Do I want to dedicate my life to pedantickry? I dunno. Asking unknowable questions and coming up unprovable answers is great, but…maybe I want more substance. I can’t do anything, though. I am inept. Those who can’t do, teach, right? I could be a teacher, but I don’t particularly like kids and I would abhor myself if I became a bad teacher. I have also considered being a librarian. I like books. I love books. I spent nearly every day after school at my town’s cheery little library in fourth through sixth grade. I spend hours in bookstores. It’s something to think about, but a rather lot of people really like books and don’t become librarians.
I just wish I could be struck by a bolt of lightning which would contain the perfect sort of career for me. I’m only 19, and I’m already tired of not knowing. I just want it to come to me.
There you go, kids.
“Vcard”? This is a synonym for the word “virginity”? Why is it necessary?
You’re right, that does sound immature and disrespectable… making up words again. Because I can’t respect that at least. But hey, there are college dining halls where guys talk like that? Glad it’s not my college, I think I’ve rarely seen a table of only girls or only guys sitting around it…
whee college. A frustration and fun times, all in one.
Stephanie on December 16th, 2007 @ 10:42 pm #
Well unfortunately, you need to get through math to be a CS major. That’s the way it is. However, there’s many different paths you can take in CS. I mean, if you want to go into robotics then you’re going to need calculus, plain and simple. But if you want to go into compiler design, then you really only need discrete math (which is completely different from calculus… at first). But if you want to do something that doesn’t involve anything like math at all, then you can focus in something like working on Microsoft Office. Personally, all of the focuses without math sound dull and boring to me. You might be the kind of person who might love math more when you start applying it.
Kimmie on December 17th, 2007 @ 12:55 am #
I liked your comments about virginity - everyone has their own ideas about what’s “appropriate” to talk about and refer to when it comes to sex and virginity. There’s a really funny play where they talk about it (www.myfirsttimetheplay.com) and don’t worry - I graduated last year and I still don’t know what I want to do - right now I’m figuring out what I like - and the process is a lot of fun!
Nicole on December 17th, 2007 @ 12:37 pm #
Why as an English major are you taking Calculus anyway? I got out of taking it because I told my adviser I want to go to law school, so she pulled some strings for me. I feel a little dishonest, but seriously, when will I be using calculus ever again in my life? I’ve yet to master the 3 times table.
Okay, kidding… but I always speak in hyperbole to reiterate a point. I think for me is that I’m just too scared that I won’t understand a thing. I’ve had bad experiences with math before (Bs and Cs).
If you like to write and read, you could always be a lawyer!
Rafia on December 17th, 2007 @ 12:38 pm #
Lol @ “vcard”. I’ve never heard that one before! But I would be surprised if they used an old-fashioned term like “deflower” :P
Kaylee on December 17th, 2007 @ 8:59 pm #